Saturday, September 6, 2008
Shift in a nano second
My brother has been speaking with me about writing. He is currently writing some personal stories and thoughts. I decided to pick up one of my favorite books on writing called "Bird by Bird" by Anne Lamott.
I had started a novel a few years back, hand written and now lost. I wonder if I wasn't supposed to finish it, just move on to something else? That was just a first draft of better things to come.
I read the Writers Almanac from NPR every morning and todays excerpt is especially moving for me.
It got me thinking of how emotions can shift in a nano second.
Reading a moving poem, seeing a piece of art, hearing a lovely piece of music, smelling a familiar scent.
Our senses are powerful tools to conjure up emotions and memories.
I was especially upset last night when my neighbors decided to have a party starting at 10pm. By 2am I had had enough. I had been so calm and enjoying my novel on writing when it all shifted to anxiety and anger. I went through all the thoughts of what I wanted to do or what could I do to alleviate my negative emotions and thoughts.
In Dialectical Behavioral Therapy they talk of "wise mind", where you are not in your emotional state and not in the reasonable state but in the middle. Where you can see what is really going on and not reacting to situations, standing back and seeing the situation for what it truly is. Thats challenging when you have sounds and thoughts coming at you at a fast pace. It took me a few hours but I got there. I saw the situation for what it was and was able to relax back to sleep.
Next time i'm hoping I can come to that place in less time.
Retraining the brain takes time and patience.