Losing Faith

What happened to the great feeling i had not too long ago? I was feelin' good, had lots of energy, very positive, optimistic.

Today, i'm feeling very blah and losing faith. I don't want to be this way, i really don't.

Maybe the "holding on" i've been doing for so long is finally catching up to me? I'm worn out, tired of being stressed out, tired of trying to make up my mind on this crazy decision, tired of so many things.

I have fear all around me and its closing in. Every pain i have i think its the cancer coming back. I've been having shooting pains in my breast,....my scarred, burned, cut, dyed, swollen breast.

I know i have so much to be grateful for. I'm just not feeling it today. I'm just tired.