Sunday, September 16, 2012

Morning Worries

Good Morning ya'll!

Just wanted to make a note to some of you that are new to my page that you can FOLLOW it and you'll get an email notification every time I post.

So, I woke up this morning with a lot of pain. My mind went to a darker place of "oh no! I'm getting worse and I'm running out of time!"...panic set in a bit.

I curled up into a ball and let those fears go thru me and then asked myself what I could do to make myself feel better.

I did some stretches and then got up to start my routine. I definitely feel better now. The pain is still there but not screaming at me. I am taking a non-narcotic pain killer that I've recently discovered I can't go off of. I tried to cut back on it thinking maybe my energy would increase because it does make me a little sleepy. Well, not good. I was in so much pain.

One thing that helps me in the morning is my Maine Coon Cat Stewie. He makes me laugh every morning. After I feed him he runs into the living room (now my bedroom) and jumps on this trunk i have there. He wants me to scratch his butt and back, just love him up. So cute and makes me laugh every time. Its become our routine. :)

I have to remind myself that I am STILL recovering from major surgery that I had a month ago. I visited my surgeon for the last time as a post-op appt. He had originally told me that my recovery was going to be 6-8 weeks. Its been just over 4. I'm still recovering.

I get this panic that I won't have that "window" of time that will allow me to do what I want to do. I want to travel to swim with the dolphins, I want to go to my friend Nancys house for a visit. I want to go on photo shoots with some friends or on my own. I would take being able to walk more than 5 minutes without being out of breath right now.

I don't own a car and have walked around town everywhere. I take buses when needed but mostly I would walk. So this change is very challenging for me. I want to be out in this beautiful weather as much as possible. Maines' weather changes so fast. Thats why us maine-ahs appreciate the good weather while its here. A-uh!

My birthday is coming up and I'd LOVE to do something special like go out dancing for 80's night or go see Cirque Du Soleil that is coming here two days after or I don't up the coast.....

So, What i'm trying to tell myself now is to remember to be in the moment. Be present. Be here NOW.



StressLess said...

Love reading your Blog Jenn.. tells me more than I get off of FB with your posts etc... of course I know why you don't share there.. but it's nice hear some of the inner workings of what your day is like and how you feel inside.

Thanks Jenn... thinking of you often... and love you so much!

StressLess said...

How do I "follow" you on your blog?

Jenngie said...

Today I walked all the way to the post office down the street! yay!! big hurdle for me.

I was definitely out of breath but felt good to be able to do so.

Its such a beautiful day out today and the flowers are still blooming at my neighbors homes.


Anonymous said...

Hi Jen
Its your old freind from New York Liz. Thank you so much for contacting me. I am sending you oooodles of positive energy and bright warm light thoughts. Surround yourself with positive energy and lots of touch from vibrant people.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience.

Jane said...

Hi Jenn

Your Blog is so beautiful Jenn. You have such amazing insights into yourself and others. You are amazing the way you deal with the incredible challenges life sends you. From the other side of the world, I'm thinking of you, and sending you SO MUCH love and positive energy.xx