Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Merry

Happy Yule, Merry Christmas......Happy Chanukah and Happy Holidays to you all!

1 comment:

Me From Maine said...

Merry Christmas, Jenn. I have been reading your blog this afternoon. You know, I realize that you don't need anyone's permission to feel the way you do, but I wanted to honestly let you know that I agree with your feelings about dying with dignity. I don't think anyone should have to suffer any more than they can handle, and certainly not for any prolonged period of time.

I just got done watching The Life of Pi online. It was a really wonderful reminder that life is not always easy, but it contains parts we can control and parts we cannot control. They say that our attitude is something we can control, but is that always true? Isn't it OK to sometimes feel the strain of our challenges? Can we not balance that with days where we feel stronger and more at peace?

I believe everything in life, and in death, is about balance. I have had so many experiences in my life that have shown me that we are so much more than our 5 senses can perceive. Our journey from one plane of existance to another is one that has particularly fascinated me over the last few years.

You asked why pain and suffering is needed (sorry if my thoughts jump around - I know you totally understand that!). I agree that it is *NOT* needed. Sometimes pain management is the most important aspect of any illness, and I guess in life itself.

I mean, we seem to demand to feel SOME pain, because sometimes that is what convinces us that it was "real"...or other times I think we feel pain is needed because of the lessons we learn from the pain. So, what happens when we decide we've learned the lesson of the pain, and yet it is still there?

Maybe sometimes pain serves as a way to help us disconnect a bit from the world as we prepare to leave it. They say that one of the stages of preparing to leave the world is that disconnect. I guess in metaphysical terms it would be called "letting go".

I cannot get into your head, of course, but the things you write in your blog seem to indicate that you are striving for a balance between disconnect and being truly present in your life - to not miss a single moment, a single lesson, a single chance to continue to BE.

I truly admire what you are going through, and I personally appreciate that you are writing down your journey. It makes me personally search deep within myself to ask those important questions - to realize that we have choices all along our journey.

We can control some things, and others we cannot. We may not need to figure out the difference, but simply to BE, in each moment.

I know you are tired, and in pain, and I am sorry that you and I have not seen each other in some time. Circumstances just keep getting in the way! There is no blame, it just IS. We don't even know each other all that well....but you have touched me, Jenn.

You are teaching me lessons, and I am appreciating your glow. I can still feel it, Jenn. Your energy is as magnificent as ever. **HUG**