I went on whats called the Duck Boat with my mom, aunt and uncle. I learned some things about Portland that I didn't know about. There was a handsome guide so that was nice on my eyes. hee hee hee. I even dressed up with a new mini ruffly skirt. Kept me cool in the heat. The Duck Boat spends about a half hour on land and a half hour in the water.
I had about 45 mins after I got home after we all had some lunch before another friend came by to visit.
I have A/C, granted its not the best one but its not horrible and it was free last year, so i'm sooooo grateful for it. So, even with the A/C my breathing is not good. I find that when I talk fast or a lot that I am suddenly out of breath. I at one point today, with my friend, thought I may hyperventilate.
I wish I could lay down now and sleep for a while, but I have my step sister coming over for a bit to visit. She will understand me not being able to talk a lot. I don't get a lot of chances to see her so I grab the time when I can get it.
It's just so frustrating not being able to take a nap, feel regenerated and go out again to do the next activity. Nope, I'm done. I could have one or two people over here for an hour or two to chat or listen to a podcast or maybe watch a movie but that's about the extent of it.
When relatives visited in the past, I would see them for breakfast, we might go for a walk somewhere after, or go shopping a bit, then maybe a rest, then out to dinner somewhere fun.
Well, not for me anymore.
I know I'm whining......It's my blog, I'm allowed to , so there! lol
I watched "my" film again with my friend who hadn't seen it yet. So that makes the 4th time I'd seen it. I got a little teary eyed when I was crying in the film saying pretty much what I am now writing about. About how the fatigue is so much more and I can't do what I used to be able to do. My aunt and uncle are only staying for four full days. I want to do as much as possible with them but my body says NO! It just pisses me off. Makes me want to crawl into bed and not get out.
I am so grateful for SO many things I still have in my life and for so many things I still CAN do now but sometimes I still get pissed off. Acceptance is a bitch, let me tell ya.
Sigh.......
2 comments:
I have always wanted to do the duck boat...will definitely have to put it closer to the top of my list now!
Being tired sucks :( I'm sure everyone understands when you get tired, even in the midst of wanting to cram as much activity in especially on nice days.
I hope your upcoming Aunt and Uncle visit will be a special time for you all.
Sending Love, Val
Hey Jenn,
These dog days are a mess! Do what you can,. The Duck Boat sounds like fun.
Liz NYC
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