Saturday, March 16, 2013
Saturday March 16th, 2013/Stewie
I went to see my amazing Polarity Therapist two days ago to get balanced and she always brings me back to center. To see what is really going on, spiritually anyway.
Marsha is very tuned in to whats happening to me now. It is very validating and ensuring that things will be as they are "supposed" to be. That doesn't mean all happy and cheerful. But it doesnt mean all doom and gloom either. I look at it as a few more lessons at school to learn.
I was telling someone the other day that just because i'm dying, doesn't mean I'm finished learning and can just lay back and do nothing.I have more things to learn or to teach others. I discovered one lesson yesterday when i was getting my apt cleaned by a wonderful woman and sometimes her husband. You just never know when or if the lessons are for you or for the other people involved.
I also mentioned to my Polarity goddess that I don't want the pain that comes with the learning anymore. Can't I be done with that now? Sometimes experiencing the intense pain brings us to the level that we need to get to, to be able to feel what is necessary. I'm still working on accepting that lesson. :)
Right now I am truly not afraid of dying, I believe the place I'm going to is extremely beautiful,. Its the pain and the having to say the goodbyes, that's the just awful part.
Thats the part I have always hated. Goodbyes to people I care for tremendously.
I know I'll see everyone again , If I choose to see people again they will be easy to see. If they also want to see me. I was told Stuart will see me right away, along with many many others who have crossed over due to cancer and other ways. I'll be surrounded by light and love.
I'm so curious how it all "works' over there on the other side. How do we all get to the places we need to get to? I'm sure I'll learn it all when I make it to the place I need to be at.
With the help of all of you who support me in whatever way you can. Prayer, healing light, whichever way. Its the intention that makes it possible for me and others to cross over.
Its all getting so heavy lately. Thats the place i'm heading for so why not talk about it now?
I'd love to hear any kind of stories of encounters of spirits of loved ones or of spirits of people unknown that you may have had moments or encounters with, I'd love to hear all about it.
Thats it for now. I'm going to try and rest, get balanced on these new meds and hopefully be more present for visitors and life in general.
Today I get to see my little niece later on today with her momma. Loving and tuned in this little girl is too, it can be remarkable to be around her just to witness what she says and does.
I am also putting out a notice to say that I'm having to put my cat up for adoption. I'm really really upset about it all. I know I have wonderful friends who would help me out but i think I need to see if a "perfect" situation comes up to the forefront first. I just don't know HOW i'm going to say goodbye to my Angel Boy. He's been there for me for many hard hard times. I know it will have to be done, but just not now.
Its all so overwhelming at times, but i'm taking it day to day and so far I haven't totally messed things up. LOL
I hope you all are still hanging in there with me for this crazy ride and hope-filled journey.
Thank you so very much!